I’ve done so many drugs I can’t remember the name of them all (what’s in a name anyway)
Seen so many friends come and go like the last line of cocaine or adderall (pssh clever)
I haven’t had a drink in a week
Double the anxiety after a hot streak (Think a week is a hot streak huh?)
Pacing and panic just to keep things stable
Money will enable me to see this through to my death
Pick apart my skull until there’s none left
Tear off my skin that I’m living in, nose running down to my chin
Six figures and miserable, just look how pitiful that woe is me kid aint seen nothing yet
What do you want?
A jumbo jet?
Not to be hated by people you just met?
Felt like zero since middle school
My first hero was [redacted]
Yeah I’ve come around since then tenfold
But scars stick around for a reason
If I drop the edge is that treason
Or just a step in the right direction?
Everything I touch turns into an infection

Fuck

[chorus]
Maybe it’s all just hindsight
Mostly said by those in the limelight
If I lived wrong maybe I can just die right
Maybe I can just die tonight

(Is he really gonna do another verse of this shit?)

I think I’m worth of love (No you’re not)
And it’s taken a lot of years to feel that way (Heh)
But sometimes I look in the mirror and say not today (Damn right)
You fucking piece of shit
You make me sick (tell it)
You fucking piece of shit (tell it)
Yeah there’s something wrong with my brain (like a lot of things)
One day I grew up and everything changed (Not really)
I think I don’t want to be like this (Your past and trauma is all you really are)
I decided maybe confided in myself (You have no self)
Put this misery back on the shelf (Fucking idiot)
I don’t want to be someone else (In your dreams)

Huh.

[chorus]

I know that chorus is misleading
This feeling is fleeting and I’ll always be at work
Cashing checks on my emotions
Bouncing back strictly to start comotions
Absent and abstract on my devotions
Carelessly counting the constructs
Blatantly bias that we’re all fucked
Aimless and awestruck (yeah something like that)

But I’m okay, shit. (Are you though?)
I’m alright. (I dunno)
Blatantly bias that we’re all fucked
Aimless and awestruck (I kinda like that)

Blatantly bias that we’re all fucked
Aimless and awestruck
Blatantly bias that we’re all fucked

[chorus]

I think I’m gonna leave
Put this all behind me (well I’ll see you later)
Because hindsight is 2020
Hindsight is 2020

(A dream)